I am loving this

I have to admit I am addicted to the Blogging. I find myself wondering what am I going to write about tonight. Watching my boys thinking about the new and funny things I can write about. I love reading my friends blogs as well. Reading about their day, what God has showed them in their time along with him or how their kids lightened their day. Bloging has been a lot more fun than I thought.



I kept my sisters little boy (9 mo old) today. So it was fun watching 3 kids, 2 year old and younger. It was cute to watch the boys interact with each other, they are so loving when they want to be, but they will let each other know when they want to be left alone. Titus would love on Travis and then Travis would later beat on Titus' back.



I have realized over the last couple of days that I only have 1 1/2 week left until I have to go back to work. I need to spend all the time I can with Titus. Yesterday we rolled around on the floor together "getting" each other. Sometimes I feel like I forgot how to have fun.



This morning Titus came into the living room with him Centurian helmet on and his sword in his hand. He put the helmet on a stuff bear that he had placed on the floor in front of the couch and start swinging at his head. Where do they learn these things? Then we decided that the stuffed beaver had a better head for the helmet so we proped the beaver up and he went to beheading the beaver.

Later on I found Titus in his room getting his "tools" out. He began to drill on the wall and then got his hammer and started hammering a nail into the wall.

Gearing Up

Today was felt uneventful, but I got a lot done. I am trying to recover from being sick this weekend, with the stomach virus. It's not fun to sit on the couch all weekend, when you have a month old laying around with you and a 2 year old runing around. Daniel was so sweet, he let me sleep in on Saturday and made breakfast and cleaned the kitchen. Today we did clean our apartment. It is always so nice to have a clean house!!

Deidra came over and we talked about Camp Conquer; it's getting to be that time of year again. We are gearing up, looking for kids and volunteers and trying to make it better than last year. Every year we strive to make camp run smoother and reach out to more families. Last year was our first year to have an article written about camp in the Dallas Morning News. This year the same reporter is going to see if she can't run an article before camp to let everyone know it is coming up soon. Deidra said we have 15 kids signed up for camp so far, and it isn't until May. These last couple of years we didn't started getting applications until the month before or the month of camp.

Titus said Benjamin clearly for the first time. It was so awesome, but he didn't say it again. The last couple of days he has been coming up to Benjamin and calling him baby. When you ask Titus what Benjamin's name is he says Baby. I was wondering if that is what he was going to call him the rest of Benjamin's life. Payton and Dylan came over to play with Titus while Deidra and I were talking, Titus was so excited. He would tell them "ome here" at one point he went and got them by the hand and kept saying "ome here" and point to his room. He LOVES having kids to play with!! Daniel told him how to say Punk today, so he would tell Dylan "ome on, unk". He is starting to talk a lot and so clearly some times. Tonight we found a sleeping bag in the closet and it was a small one for kids. Titus rolled around in it for a long time, but decided it was too warm to sleep in, so he fell alseep on the floor beside the sleeping bag. Have I said how much I love him?!



This last week as I was preparing for worship (reading James 3:1-12) I came across an interesting statement in a commontary that I read several times. It said It is better to fight a fire than to go around seeting new ones! It was like God was telling me I hade to solve a problem that I have been waiting for it to resovle or fix itself. I can't just talk about it, I have to actually adress this problem head on. I realize how much of a nonconfrontational person I am. As much as I want to be confrontational and I will say to myself or to my husband this is what I would do. I am a scaredy cat!! I want or wish people will read my mind and/or the problem will just fix itself. God has opened my eyes to the fact that I need to be more confrontational and truthfully honest in love, and I can with His help.

I'm A Big Boy Now

So we have been working on the potty training with Titus in order to get out of diapers. Hopefully soon!! Diapers are getting so expensive and I absolutely hate the idea of cloth diapers. I just would feel guilty for doing that to a baby sitter or someone at church or my mom who watches him during the day. So we on our outing together went and got him some Big Boy underwear. He picked them out, they have construction equipment on them. He has been playing around with them the last couple of days. We took them out of the package and asked him if he wanted to wear them, he said no. I was hopeing that one day he would want to wear them and I guess potty train himself. Like I said I was hoping or dreaming. One day when it gets warm outside we are going to put him in them and see what happens. Today he got a pair and started trying to put it on his head. Wanting to be like Daddy who puts pants and different types on clothes on his head being goofy and entertaining. Titus then wanted to put the underwear on. I was so excited thinking okay, he is ready. "Okay, let's take your diaper off, so we can put them on." Titus said "No"; he just wanted to put them on over his pants to wear around the house. So for most of the day today he was wearing them, it was just outside of his pants. It was so cute though. I am so proud of him.

Titus has been saying "Elp U" for a couple different things lately. It either means, I want to help you, I want to sit up on the counter top or open this. It is funny to try and figure out what he is trying to say. I love it that he is starting to talk more and more clearly every day. I can almost have a full conversation with him. I am looking forward to the day that I can ask how his day was and he answers back with something I understand. But then I will be saying that he is growing up too fast. Raising children is a bittersweet experience.

My mom said something the other day that has been stuck. We don't pray for our families enough. I didn't really give any thought to it at first, but then after I got home that night, I realized I don't pray for my husband, kids, or close friends and family enough. I have been trying to make a conscience effort to pray for those close to me on a daily basis. How is it that the God who created us tends to get put on the back burner so much? I admit I have done it over the past month or two. It's not something I do intentionally, but one day goes by and then the next and before you know it, it has been quit a while since I have read my Bible or even had a decent coversation with God. I mean talked to God like He was right infront of me haveing a meal with me. I admire Cari and Karl. They have the most pasionate prayers. It always is as if they are talking to their best friend. How come I can't or don't prayer like that? Is the something that comes with practice or you just have that ability?

Wanting to remember

I have always wanted to journal, but growing up it was always when I was mad or depressed about something. So I wante to start a blog where I could write about what's going on and remember all those little things that you forget if you don't write down. I love my two little boys, Titus and Benjamin. Now I understand how proud parents don't talk about much other than their kids. Their acheivements, funny stories, new words of the day, accomplishments and frustrations/headaches that they cause. Here are the Lilly Stories as told by myself.

Today I got to have an outing with myself and Titus. We went to Chick-fil-a for a late lunch and then out for some shoping. He went and played on the play ground, he still young enough I can get him to eat a couple of pieces of chicken before he runs off to play. He surprised me and was able to open the door to get to the playground all by himself. I hid from him at one point and we were chasing each other around a big tube until he was saying "Mommy, Mommy" wondering where I had gone. It was nice to hear that love in his voice wondering where his Mommy had gone to. He tried to climb up the slide, each time he would go farther and farther up, trying to get to the top(he never got there). Then we went shoping to get a gift for Jessica's little girl, Madyline, who was born Monday, Feb. 11 and the rest of Daddy's Valentine's gift. Our last stop was at Target, Titus was so tired he almost fel asleep in the buggie. If you can picture, Titus, sitting his knees in the back of the buggie with his head tilted back and his eyes barely being kept open, while his sways back and oth barely missing the side of the buggie. The poor litte gut was so tired. It was a blast just hanging out with Titus and not have to worry about anything else.

Titus has been such a great big brother since Benjamin arived, Jan. 16. He wants to hold him and help take care of him, although he still has a jealous streak. Today I found him crawling up in my lap while he was watching "Mouse" (aka Tom and Jerry the Movie). I love it when he crawls up in my lap or runs up and gives you a great big hug!!

Titus is half way pottie trained, we ae so proud and excited!! He will tell you he has to go "Poughee" (potty) when he has to go poop and sometimes when he has to go pee, but we are still working on the consistancy. He loves to play any sport with a ball, baseball, football, soccer, and golf. Every day he puts his baseball helmet on, which he got for his birthday, gives myself or daniel the glove along with a ball and then gets his bat and hits the floor like he is hitting the plate and then wants you to throw the ball. He hasn't gotten the swinging down; so we just throw the ball at the bat. He will ask "You want to fight" and put up his dukes. Titus LOVES to drink "Mihk" (milk). His favorite movies at the current time are: Finding Nemo, Garfield and Tom and Jerry The Movie, which have replaced Little Rascals and Sandlot. He says "Peaze" (Please) and "tank u" (Thank you which he nods/bobbs his head while saying). If you ask him what his name is he will say "Tiyus" and he can tell you who mommy and daddy are if you point and ask. If you point to Benjamin and ask who he is, Titus will say "baby" or "Benjin". Sometimes he calles Benjamin, Travis. He likes to get an old cell phone and walks around saying "hewo, yeah, papaw..." like he is having a conversation with someone, but if you call Papaw, then he gets really shy and won't really talk. He call my mom "Mammy" which, I think drives her crazy, but he can't say Grammy just yet. He used to call my sister Beka, Bebba, but now he can pronounce his k's, so now he can say Katy and Kyle as well.

Benjamin is just a typical infant. He eats, sleeps, poops, and is starting to stay awake more and more every day. He had a tummy ache today so he was a little fussy. He is a much quieter baby than Titus was. Even when he cries he is kind of quiet. He wants to eat about every 3 hours and he is pretty much like clock work. I will be glad when he sleeps through the night!! He is going to be my cuddle bug, he loves to be wrapped up in a blanket. The more blankets the better. He looks just like Titus did when he was born, it is amazing, but then they are brothers.

I love all three of my boys (Daniel, Titus and Benjamin). I am so glad that God has blessed me with boys!! I love having balls all over my house every where. We have every size and shape imaginable in our house, mostly in Titus' room.

I love playing the piano in our church worship team!! My piano teach knew from when I was young that I would be playing for a church when I grew up. When Mark Forrest came over to my house after an AWANA conference to ask if I would play for Murphy Road Baptist Church, I was teriffied to play for a church. I have come a long way!!! I now with the encouragement and help of many Worship Leaders, sing and am the Lead Worshiper for Axis Church. Singing was a huge step for me!! I wanted to play Breathe so I asked the Worship Leader if he would sing if I played it and someone said "Why don't you just sing it"... To this day I still get nervous before every service. But I love singing praises to my Lord and Saviour. I love sharing my talents with others.

Last, but certainly not least. I love my husband Daniel. He encouraged me to start a blog. We will have been married 8 years this August. I can't believe is has almost been 8 years, sometimes I feel like we just got married. I am still learning how to communicate and love him well. He is the romantic in our relationship, but I try... it just takes me a VERY long time to get a romantic idea. We have a hard time keeping gifts from each other. Our first Christmas together, I don't think we had any gifts to give each other on Christmas day, because we were too excited about our gifts and couldn't wait. Christmas day wasn't very fun, because we had already opened everything. He makes me laugh and feel like a million dollars. We get frustrated with each other all the time, but I fall in love with him more and more every day.